I'll be Back

Oops, I felt sorry for neglecting my blog but I still remember that I have a blog, I really do! Okay, here's the reason (or a lame excuse maybe?) for being away for a month. I'm having my practical for two months and now it's already the 6th week yay~ Anyway, there's 24 hours per day and I need to work for 8 hours from 8 a.m till 5 p.m. I have to wake up at 6 a.m.and it takes an hour or so to reach the working place for one way because of the heavy traffic and long distance from my house. So imagine 11 hours gone after work. When I reach home, I spend an hour plus for my dinner, cleaning up and taking bath. I go to bed roughly at around 11 p.m (today is an exception). So that means I only have 4+ hours left and what do I do during that period? Entertainment of course =D Since my brain is worn out after work, blogging is already out of my to-do list. But I promise that I'll be back once my practical ends. There're some photos and stuffs which I would like to share here.

I'm still using an old fashioned mobile phone but it wasn't that old fashioned back then when I was in high school. Good thing is that it helps me to save a lot of money because no matter how many times it fell off from my bed and hit the ground with a loud "thud", it is still functional ^___^ Well well, what I'm actually trying to say is that I don't have instagram since I don't have an android/ touch screen phone or whatever you call it. However, photoshop really can do magic tricks and turn my photos into instagram photos. Photoshop is awesome and I gotta promote it whenever I can although I won't receive any commissions xD

It's August so I'm going to share 8 random photos =)

I miss school and I'm looking forward to the last semester. Seriously, this is not like something I would have said ahahah. I'll have to stop here, till the next time!

Zombie signing off

P.C Day 14

P.C day 14: Eyes

This is originally a cat photo (some stray cat by the roadside) and I cropped out the eyes xD I should have taken another photo which is aiming for the eyes but i don't know, I feel like I should end the photo challenge quickly. 4 more days to go and classes will start right away.

They appeared not just once but a few times. I was forever running like I have infinite stamina and energy, running and hiding away from them. It's weird that they never fail to find me. One time, he found me out of nowhere and he cursed loudly right in front of my face. I was like O.O and then I was like =.= Really, it's funny and I wonder if he's someone like that in person.

Catch no ball?

These are parts of my dream.

I've come up with a conclusion that, I'm very eager to free myself from what has been troubling me but it's holding onto me and is unwilling to let me go. Yup, that makes sense.

Zombie signing off

Feeling Bad

If I was asked to turn left, I would turn left. When they asked me to make that decision, I wouldn't hesitate a bit. She said, "Let's do this." I would never say no. Well, that's just somebody i used to be. Somebody who didn't even dare to say out her opinion. Somebody who was afraid of rejecting other people's offers. What does that remind you of? A living puppet?

Right now, I still love peace like anybody does. I don't like to and I'm too lazy to start up an argument or quarrel. Despite that, I've learnt how to decide things for myself and I'll say no whenever my heart tells me so. I'll say that i don't feel like going out with you guys. However, I've always ended up regretting and feeling bad. What if that makes them unhappy? What if that will make them think that I'm proud and difficult to deal with? What if I've made a mistake for rejecting their invitation? So many what if.

So if someone asks me to do this and that, to go here and there, I'll think twice and that makes me hesitate like forever. So, I keep asking myself, "When will I be able to refuse or reject something confidently without feeling bad?" The answer is: by coming up with a good excuse. No, sadly that doesn't work for me.

*sigh*..This is life.

ABC about me

This is something very random and it's to increase the number of my posts =D


A - AVAILABLE: Yes

B - BIRTHDAY: 11th January

C- CRUSHING ON: Him maybe but i'm still verifying whether that's just a crush

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Honey drink

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: it depends on what topic

F - FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT: The A Team by Ed Sheeran

H - HOMETOWN:  A small city called "Cat city"

I - IN LOVE WITH: Snacks <3

J - JUGGLE: Teach me how to

K - KILLED SOMEONE: Never!

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: during family vacation from one city to another

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Mango or chocolate milkshake

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: None, I'm all alone ^^"

O - ONE WISH: Pass every subjects once

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Fiona, and that was weeks ago

R- REASON TO SMILE: Many

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Koini Ochite cover by Olivia Ong

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: around 10a.m.

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: Do...i.....have.....to answer this?

V - VEGETABLE: Lady's fingers, cabbage

W - WORST HABIT: Cannot stay focus for more than 1 hour while doing revision

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD MOST RECENTLY: During medical checkup last year if i didn't remember wrongly

Y - YOYOS ARE: Childhood toys

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Capricorn, the goat

RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU

Your favorite number/s: anything but 4

What color do you wear most: Black i think

Least favorite color: the very bright and vivid green, yellow, pink or orange (high-lighter colours)

What are you listening : Olivia Ong's covers

Are you happy with your life right now: Exam is killing me softly

What is your favorite class in school: English

Who is/are your best friend/s: There are 2-3 of them

Are you outgoing: With strangers? No. With close friends? Yes.

Favorite pair of shoes:  Black Pumps

Can you dance?: I dance like a robot

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth: Is that possible?

Can you whistle: No

Cross your eyes: Maybe

Walk with your toes curled: Out of curiosity, when i was a little girl

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

Do you believe in life in other planets: Yes, it's just that they are too far away from earth to be discovered

Do you believe in miracles: I think so

Do you believe in magic: Magic tricks, hell yeah!

Love at first sight: Used to. Now i care more about a guy's personalities.

Do you believe in Santa: You mean the ones who appear in the mall every X'mas?

Do you know how to swim: I might have forgotten how to. 

Do you like roller coasters: NO thank you. 

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows: Errrgghhh, no?

Have you ever been on a plane: Yes but it's not comfortable sitting in a plane

Have you ever asked someone out: Yeah, especially when i need to watch movies!

Have you ever been to the ocean: Yes, always my favorite place

Have you ever painted your nails?: Yeah, several times in a year to try out new colours

THE WHAT'S

What is the temperature outside?: It's raining so probably 30 degree celcius or less?

What radio station do you listen to: Mix.fm, i never switch to other radio stations

What was the last restaurant you ate at: *Recalling* Arghhh..i seriously forgot

What was the last thing you bought: A mini treasure box for keeping my earrings :3

What was the last thing on TV you watched: A chinese matchmaking show

THE WHO'S

Who was the last person you IM'd: It's been centuries ago since i last signed in

Who was the last person you took a picture of: Nic-chan =D

Who was the last person you said I love you to: Ummmm.. my mom?

CRYING SECTION

Ever really cried your heart out: Definitely yes

Ever cried yourself to sleep: Of course

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder: No, i try not to cry in front of anyone

Ever cried over the opposite sex: isnt this usually the reason people go emo?

Do you cry when you get an injury: When the pain is unbearable T^T

Do certain songs make you cry: Yes, especially those which make me recall something sad ='(

HAPPY SECTION

Are you a happy person?: Not really but as what my profile stated, i'm a pessimist who's learning how to be an optimist ~

LOOK AT ME

What is your current hair color: Black and dark brown at certain part

CURRENTLY WEARING

What shirt are you wearing: An oversize T-shirt (that's what i wear at home)

Pants: shorts

Shoes: No, i walk around barefooted at home

Necklaces: A platinum necklace (not showing off, am trying to answer all the questions honestly)

IN A Girl Or Boy

Favorite eye color: natural light brown

Short or long hair: short and not oily xD 

Height: hmmmmm..165-180 i guess

HAVE YOU EVER

Been to jail: Never!

Mooned someone: Huh?

Thought about suicide: Yes oddly

Laughed so hard you cried: nth times, people will stare at me doubtfully

Cried in school : Yes, when my friends gave me a surprise on my birthday

Thrown up in a store: Probably when i was little kid

Wanted to be a model: Wanted to be a photographer =)

Seen a dead body: Yes, my grandpa's

Been on drugs: Never!

Gone skinny dipping: I don't have the courage to do so >,<
Been cheated on: Yes, but i couldn't remember who and when
Kissed someone and regretted it: No
Been drunk and threw up: No. Sadly, i don't drink

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi

McDonald's or Burger King: McD i'm lovin it !

Single or Group Dates: Currently i prefer group dates

Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate <3

Strawberries or Blueberries: Blueberries

Meat or Veggies: Veggies

TV or Movie: difficult to choose =< watching TV with family and watching movie with friends =D

Guitar or Drums: Drums (I dream of becoming a cool drummer)

Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lips or eyes: 60% for Eyes and 40% for lips 
Hugs or kisses: huggies~~
Shorter or taller: I'm short O.O
Older or younger: slightly older
Romantic or spontaneous: both xD

Learn the Lessons

Original photo and model from: polite little face

You and your temper reminds me of him.

Who's that him? He's someone i used to care about but not anymore.

I should have learnt the lessons by now. I shouldn't repeat the same mistakes as this isn't about recycling issue. I had sunk into the bottom of the ocean and I should be the one who pulls myself back onto the shore, back to reality.

I had promised myself not to write anything depressing on my blog and i had broken that promise. I was desperately in need for a medium to help me in getting rid of the junks in my head which are constantly troubling me and influencing the progress of things which need to be done. Facebook is definitely not a good idea. I was thinking of writing them down and after that tear the paper into pieces. But the moment I hold the pen or pencil, i'll start to doodle randomly. I can hardly write down the mess of words in my mind. So here I am.

I've always told myself, that everything will be okay, that it's okay to do the dumb things since they provide me with experiences, lessons to be learnt and remembered and as a guide on how to move on to the next steps. Anyway, here's a to-do-list when i'm upset or simply not in a good mood:

☀take a deep breathe, think about the main source(s) which lead me into having mood swing and come out with a solution or solutions to it.

☀ having a piece of chocolate or two

☀ listening to sentimental songs and sing aloud when i'm alone in my own room

☀reading blog posts

☀looking at beautiful and inspiring photos or drawings

☀taking a nap (usually it's a long nap)

and lastly,

☀smile from the bottom of your heart because there are always things that i'm grateful of.

Start your day and end your day with a smile. It'll make a great difference =)

Fresh Look

I have changed my blog layout for like one, two and three times. I'm not so happy with the previous one although it looked okay. Well, just because it appeared to be okay, so i changed it. The new layout looks a lot better, don't you agree =) ? I want my readers to feel comfortable while reading my posts. I have changed the blog title as well. Sorry for the sudden and frequent changes >.< I might make some more changes to my blog in the future. I need improvements for it, that's the point ~

Hooray, it's finally weekend again and I'm lovin' it.

P/s: I'll blog again soon.

Nice Combination

Had this

plus

this

equals to

this, as my supper

while listening to this

and playing with this.

A splendid way to end my day ^^

Warning!! Zombie, you haven't yet touch your assignments today #pokerface

Hibernating

This is my little collection of felt fabric. I'd finally collected so many colours *satisfied* Love the onigiri I made last time. I gave a set for my cousin during her birthday and luckily i had made one for myself =3

Thanks to mom who gave me all of her threads. She used to use them for sewing cross stitch but she seems to lost interest in that. So yea, i save a lot of money for this ^^ Anyway, when i first got it from mom, they were in a mess that is all of the threads were entangled together into a ball of yarn. I spent about a few days to undo the knots and sort out the colours. They finally look like this, well organised *proud of myself* xD

Okay, i'll gonna close the box and keep you safely somewhere in my room. Will not bother you until the next semester break starts. Sweet dreams ~ 

I know it's useless and meaningless to say this now "I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING BACK TO THE CAMPUS" but i have too *sigh* Have to wake up early in the morning so i must force myself to sleep now. Good night. See ya again on...*shrug* i don't know when ><

Jeng Jeng~~ CNY Special ☆

This post is very special, you know why? It's because i'm gonna reveal my face here ( ´ ▽ ` ) Yup, for those who are curious about how i may look like (beware, curiosity kills the cat =P)

On the 21th of Jan, i went to a very small town called "peace town" (direct translation from Malay) to celebrate CNY because it's where my paternal grandparents are living in. I didn't bring the camera along with me so there're no photos to show for the CNY eve, the 1st and the 2nd day. Hmmm..it was kinda boring there. Not much of the visiting. I did not enjoy the food either because of the damn viruses invading my immune system. But i'm quite happy with the red packets (angpaos) that i had received. I mean, who doesn't like to receive angpaos with cash inside =P Anyway,we went back to our hometown on the 2nd day. 

Tadaa~ This is a family gathering on the 3rd day. A huge family gathering, that is.

Group photo taking of my lovely cousins and I. Can you spot me? I'm the one with short hair (and FYI, i'm a female). Oh by the way, the British guy standing at the back is my cousin's bf. She met him in Australia when she was studying there. Now, they are both geologists =) They love to travel so he followed her back to her hometown =3 I heard that he likes our little city.

Another group photo with the cousins and the cousins' sons and daughters. I have many cousins you see. Now, it's just the few of us (in the photo) who haven't get married.

I'll have to stop here. Tata for now ^^

Million Thanks

Yeah~ Exam was finally over !! But i'm not confident with the results p(´⌒｀q)

This is not a Google advertisement.

It's my pleasure to be having the same day of birthday with Nicholas Steno, who is the father of modern geology.  I'd briefly gone through an article about him (actually i know nothing about him before i saw the Google doodle). Happy 374th birthday to you and also the 22th birthday to myself. I feel so young if compared to Nicholas Steno (nonsense).

Many thanks to those who remembered my birthday. I appreciate it very much.

Thanks to my mom for being with me and thanks to mom and dad for the yummy meals (dad was on his business trip).

Thanks to my buddies for suggesting to help me to celebrate but i said it has to be postponed due to me having exams this week. Hope we can meet soon~

Under the Coconut Shell

I've gotten used to go to bed late at night. It's the time when i feel myself floating off to the faraway land, away from reality (I daydream a lot, at anytime and anywhere). It's even better when it's raining. Listening to the rain calms my heart. That's when the words keep pouring in and i have the sudden urge to write a post. Pray hard that i won't oversleep when i'm having my exams in the morning.

I never let my hair grew until my shoulder since i was born until the age of 13, believe it or not =3 My mom used to be my hairdresser that time and she didn't allow my hair to grow long. I can't remember what was her reason already. She liked to cut my hair real short (the shortest length is above my ears). Imagine my hair which was short and thick, that made me looked as if i was wearing a helmet/mushroom cap/half of the coconut shell. I looked funny yet cute (seriously it's other people's opinions, not mine). That's my trademark when i was a little girl.

I finally had the freedom to let my hair grew long at the age of 14. I can't remember why my mom allowed me to do so. My hair is wavy in a messy way (heredity) and I MUST tie up my hair whenever i step out of my house otherwise i'll look as if i have just woken up from a nap. Then one day, i planned to save money to rebond my hair (wanted to experience the feel of possessing the long straight shiny hair like the models in the shampoo advertisements very eagerly). And finally, my long hair was successfully rebonded at the age of 19. Only then i realized that the high temperature had killed billions of my hair. So i cut my hair short again during March last year and was maintaining it until now.
Aww..i feel young again, like when i was a little girl with the coconut shell on her head ( ´ ▽ ` )

Tell you why I prefer having short hair, it's actually common sense ~

✿ I won't look like the ghost from "the Ring" when i wake up.

✿ It saves water, shampoo and conditioner, time, money and energy.

✿ It lowers the chances of the hair getting knotted together or having split ends (totally hate it when my hair splits into four parts or more).

✿ You don't have to worry about your hair accidentally brushing the face of someone who's behind or beside you when you turn around (It happened and it was embarrassing).

✿ You don't have to worry about your hair covering your face and blocking your view while you're walking when a gust of wind blows ヽ(｀д´；)ﾉ うおおおお！

See? Short hair brings many of benefits if you can forget about being pretty and ladylike. Having short hair won't make you act like a boy anyway. 

*yawns* my body is telling me to go to bed. Bye ~~

Oh well, Never Mind ~

I thought i have only one more presentation left before the study week (and also the Christmas holiday) but there were one assignment given yesterday and today so altogether there are two of them. Is that an early Christmas present, fellow lecturers? We're more like being trolled O.Olll I'll try to complete them by tomorrow.

Anyway, buddies will be busy with this and that on Christmas eve and Christmas day. I guess that means there will be no outings for me ╮(╯_╰)╭. Should i go to the cinema and watch a movie alone or should i watch the outdated movies at home? Perhaps i'll just stay at home and do some revisions (okay, i sounded like a big fat liar).

Ahahah..that describes how lazy i am for most of the time ~~

I feel that shopping alone is not a bad experience. Firstly, i can take my sweet time admiring and choosing the things which i like. I mean, i'll feel bad sometimes if i stay too long in a shop looking at the things which my friends are not very interested in. Secondly, i can pay more attention to the surroundings. If i'm with my buddies, we'll chat from one end of the mall to the other end. We'll lose track of time and tends to forget where our next station is. Yea, the amount of saliva used up is more than the water we drink.

How did i spend my time in the mall yesterday? Well, I'd been shopping in MPH bookstore ♥ Bought a handmade kit for the making of a photo album .^^. It's quite expensive but i'm happy to own it. Fell in love with it at the first sight. I'm afraid that it'll be out of stock so finally decided to buy it in case i regretted. After i snap a photo of it, i'll post it ~ 

Oh yes, i know how i will spend my Christmas. I'll make a photo frame for Nic-chan, whose birthday is on the 13th of jan =) *rub my chin*

Have to go and complete my assignments. Kay thanks bye ~ 

Fly Me to the Moon

News about the eclipse of the moon is spamming on my FB wall. I went out around 7pm and look at the sky, it was covered with pinkish clouds. A very unfavorable weather to watch the moon eclipse it seems.

Guess what is this ? It's the photo of a full moon which i had snapped weeks or months ago, i can't remember. An epic failure, that was. I have no idea why there was a blue reflection and it wouldn't disappear for good. I guess using my camera to snap a proper photo of the moon is a mission impossible.

Happy eclipse watching, peeps. I'll give it a pass.

Listening to the rain ~

Hello December.

It's raining almost everyday, and that slows down my rate of production (production of assignments and reports of course). I feel like lying in my bed with my eyes closed, and listening to the rain falls.

I  heard people said that xmas songs can be heard here and there. Since i'm either at home or at the campus, i can't really feel the xmas atmosphere. But hey, there're actually 2-3 rolls of xmas trees planted in a specific area of the campus so it's like xmas for 365 days.

Time flies, soon it'll be the end of 2011. I should take a walk outside once i'm not that busy anymore. It's been months since i had slowed down my walking pace and have a look at the scenery as well as what has been happening around. I might realize that they're several changes which i have never noticed before.

See ya in my next post ~

Not a Perfectionist

hmm..i guess i won't be writing much after my classes start which is a few weeks away from now. my life will be packed with reports, assignments, examinations and stuffs like that =/

i'd realized that i've been spending a lot of time on just a single post, mehhh.. i guess i'm too concerned about the correct usage of grammar, vocab and etc.. so, i'll triple or quadruple check my typing before posting and i even google search for those appropriate words which i can use to express/explain things. well, not to say that i'm a perfectionist. i just feel like i should try my best in doing things.
i seriously need someone who is professional in English language and can help me to identify my grammar mistakes and all that *sigh*

i have to go to sleep early tonight (to me it's considered as early but it's actually not). definitely not going to sleep at 4 in the morning ><

nights ~

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less,cuz you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right

All I wanted was to know i'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less,cuz you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love for me
We can’t escape the love
Give me everything that you have

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less,cuz you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right

Zombie Haunts the Bakery

oh yeah, finally to the second post. wait a minute, why is my mind totally blank now ? how am i supposed to maintain my blog under a condition like this =.= ? *taking a deep breathe* hmm..guess i should write something about myself. let's start with my appearance then, about how i look =)

as you can see from the "about me" widget, simple, plain and ordinary best describe me. but this is not detail enough. if i say i look like Velma from the Scooby-Doo series, you can immediately catch the image of how i actually look like ^^ my hairstyle is similar to that of hers (mine is longer though) and i'm wearing a thick-framed specs as well (sorry, not going to show my photo >< use your imagination, please =D ). i'm skinny and short. to sum up, i'm the chibi asian version of Velma, hehe..

my blog is called "gone is all sorrow" and it's a weird name for a blog i think. obviously i can't think of a better name >< and this is the only one that came to my mind. i think that this phrase applies to everyone (well, perhaps to almost everyone). it's sorrowful to have lost something precious or someone we love, isn't it ='( ? so this title serves the purpose of reminding myself to appreciate the things around me instead of taking them for granted.

my displayed name is "zombie haunts the bakery" xD you can probably guess the exact meaning of it already. i LOVE every single food which i can find in the bakery (bread, buns, pastries, cakes, cookies and etc..) and is constantly craving for them *saliva drops* bakery is one of my favourite shopping places ♥♥ 

as for why did i call myself "zombie haunts the bakery" and not "velma haunts the bakery" ? i look like velma doesn't mean that i act like her, i have my own character too. i'm acting (umm..not really acting, "being" might be more suitable in this case) like a zombie most of the time: slow, bitter faced, gloomy-looking and lifeless (eating brains is an exception ^^"). i think i'll have to go into more detail about my personalities and interests on the next post. if i add everything in here, i'll be having troubles thinking of what to write for my next post *ORZ*

Tata for now ~